well i was reading some of my own posts and yeah i know what you feel like. anyways i liked it and like it. blah-ing away at odd hours to an audience who will always listen and having the advantage of getting numb fingers instead of a sore throat. its good. sense whether to you it makes or not is inconsequential.
though it is truly amazing what the mind spits out when you are bored in the middle of the night.
Thursday, January 26, 2006
To the Moon and Back!
hmmm. its been a while since i cared to update this space. been through exams in december and then went to kuwait in january. the trip was amazing. i met everybody after a long while and it was definitely worth it. all the others graduate next may and move onto jobs and stuff.
i dont know but i kinda felt irresponsible and felt the pressure build, to go on and be something but i guess there is still time for me so i shouldnt really worry from now. from what i hear thats what i will be doing for the rest my life anyway. well it was an experience though as it helped me put somethings in perspective. i got a few things cleared up in life. i was really glad to have the chance to step out and refocus on the issues at hand than all the other bullshit i keep thinking of doing.
but there is still more i need to learn and time is short. then there will soon be a crush in final year when burden will increase and it will help to have the focus gained.
but i already feel the pep fading. the bloody atmosphere here does it to you. lets you wander aimlessly. therefore more and more energy is spent on useless pursuits. these days surfing the cyber waves and cricket. it is 4 am and what am i doing up. well time is abundant and there is no necessity to work. end result? layers of fat (physical and mental). i have got to change this and find a feasible routine. hahaha. yeah right. three and half years it has taken me and i doubt i will find it now. i will retire for the night or rather morning shall we say.
pray for world peace... :)
i dont know but i kinda felt irresponsible and felt the pressure build, to go on and be something but i guess there is still time for me so i shouldnt really worry from now. from what i hear thats what i will be doing for the rest my life anyway. well it was an experience though as it helped me put somethings in perspective. i got a few things cleared up in life. i was really glad to have the chance to step out and refocus on the issues at hand than all the other bullshit i keep thinking of doing.
but there is still more i need to learn and time is short. then there will soon be a crush in final year when burden will increase and it will help to have the focus gained.
but i already feel the pep fading. the bloody atmosphere here does it to you. lets you wander aimlessly. therefore more and more energy is spent on useless pursuits. these days surfing the cyber waves and cricket. it is 4 am and what am i doing up. well time is abundant and there is no necessity to work. end result? layers of fat (physical and mental). i have got to change this and find a feasible routine. hahaha. yeah right. three and half years it has taken me and i doubt i will find it now. i will retire for the night or rather morning shall we say.
pray for world peace... :)
For What It Is Worth : Love
most of us at some point or the other in our lives are initiated into the world of love. for most it is the fluctuant adolesence that brings the spring of this new found emotion. others are a little late. but nonetheless it is assured that all of us know that we have been or will be there.
love, it should be agreed, is the one of the most overrated, overused, least understood words of our time. for different people it elicits diverse emotions. as diverse are the varieties that are out there for you to get. all you need to do is ask. there are the traditional varieties like motherly and fatherly loves, the sisterly and brotherly loves, and there are also in the same family, products of more exotic kinds like the sexual love, platonic love and spiritual love. if only it could be put in a box, walmart would have made a killing. $50 a kilo. well the way the world is headed, the days aren't too far away when people will bid to buy love on ebay. and some of us cant wait for that!!
but what is this word that we throw around? is it a sin to use it in vain (alongside the lord's name)? should there be a code for its usage? is it guaranteed by law? foolish as it may seem, this thing(love)can cause more agony than george w.'s union address and more joy than cold water in the sahara. listed with the merriam-webster are more than 24 entries for love and they range from the motherly mushy definitions to the more exciting amorous sexual episodes. but what i found most apt was " love : 8. a score of zero (as in tennis) ". those four words captivate the beauty of it all with a simplicity only god and the guy who invented tennis could think of. love as a score of zero symbolises the state of nullification of the intellect, the senses, the wisdom and not the least the freedom of the individual spirit. a little harsh? well, bluntly put people in love make stupid decisions(and you thought it was only in the movies). we can lie but cant deny the truth. we have all been there and those that have not as yet will so be there. and as for the senses, the diktat of love is such that for that rosy period of your life when you think you are in love, nothing can get better. yeah right! and finally all my fellow beings who have entered the bond of monogamous commitment to a fellow being will know that the freedom lost, though also in the sexual plane (homo erectus zindabad!), is more importantly of the emotional, private, social, professional and rarely spiritual kinds.
well all this said, is love a bad thing? let me characterise love for you. simply put, love is a syndrome not a single entity. it encompasses several mental and physical states which together lead to the more subjective notion. undeniably, it is first a physical attraction to a fellow being, therefore placing first the need for physical compatibility. the next step is that of personal compatibilty, the nuances of which have been elaborated time and again since the birth of society and its order. these include the usual social, professional, familial and the likes. these satisified does not yet constitute love. there has to be an essential commitment, no matter how brief, and an out-of-this-world feeling to go with it. tada! you are in love.
is it worth the trouble? well let me tell you, ideas like falling in love or that love just happens are far fetched. love or any such phenomenon is all about subconscious calculations based on comparisons of the like with like and a measurement of the unlike and how much of it one is willing to consider. this, for example, simply explains the success of arranged marriages. the couple have a wide bandwidth within which they are willing to accomodate the differences. this however is not universal. all rules have exceptions. other type of marriages, the love marriages, work a lot of the times too, provided that the participants in such a relationship subscribe less to romantic imagination and are adaptable and compromising enough to enable creation of a similar understanding. highly individual choices and independence bring with them the inevitable clash of personalities which is often shrouded by the cloak of love. once the rose coloured glasses come off, these formerly subliminal bombs surface to create all havoc.
life is all about getting what you want, making most of what's available and being content with what you have. these are the lessons learnt over millenia of civilisation which brought with them complexities of communal life, society and identity. an adaptable, understanding relationship based on mutual trust and respect with adequate scope for individual expression is the ideal foundation to experience the higher emotions of conjugation, cohabitation and coexistence. two voices come to sing as one, each retaining its unique beauty.
love, it should be agreed, is the one of the most overrated, overused, least understood words of our time. for different people it elicits diverse emotions. as diverse are the varieties that are out there for you to get. all you need to do is ask. there are the traditional varieties like motherly and fatherly loves, the sisterly and brotherly loves, and there are also in the same family, products of more exotic kinds like the sexual love, platonic love and spiritual love. if only it could be put in a box, walmart would have made a killing. $50 a kilo. well the way the world is headed, the days aren't too far away when people will bid to buy love on ebay. and some of us cant wait for that!!
but what is this word that we throw around? is it a sin to use it in vain (alongside the lord's name)? should there be a code for its usage? is it guaranteed by law? foolish as it may seem, this thing(love)can cause more agony than george w.'s union address and more joy than cold water in the sahara. listed with the merriam-webster are more than 24 entries for love and they range from the motherly mushy definitions to the more exciting amorous sexual episodes. but what i found most apt was " love : 8. a score of zero (as in tennis) ". those four words captivate the beauty of it all with a simplicity only god and the guy who invented tennis could think of. love as a score of zero symbolises the state of nullification of the intellect, the senses, the wisdom and not the least the freedom of the individual spirit. a little harsh? well, bluntly put people in love make stupid decisions(and you thought it was only in the movies). we can lie but cant deny the truth. we have all been there and those that have not as yet will so be there. and as for the senses, the diktat of love is such that for that rosy period of your life when you think you are in love, nothing can get better. yeah right! and finally all my fellow beings who have entered the bond of monogamous commitment to a fellow being will know that the freedom lost, though also in the sexual plane (homo erectus zindabad!), is more importantly of the emotional, private, social, professional and rarely spiritual kinds.
well all this said, is love a bad thing? let me characterise love for you. simply put, love is a syndrome not a single entity. it encompasses several mental and physical states which together lead to the more subjective notion. undeniably, it is first a physical attraction to a fellow being, therefore placing first the need for physical compatibility. the next step is that of personal compatibilty, the nuances of which have been elaborated time and again since the birth of society and its order. these include the usual social, professional, familial and the likes. these satisified does not yet constitute love. there has to be an essential commitment, no matter how brief, and an out-of-this-world feeling to go with it. tada! you are in love.
is it worth the trouble? well let me tell you, ideas like falling in love or that love just happens are far fetched. love or any such phenomenon is all about subconscious calculations based on comparisons of the like with like and a measurement of the unlike and how much of it one is willing to consider. this, for example, simply explains the success of arranged marriages. the couple have a wide bandwidth within which they are willing to accomodate the differences. this however is not universal. all rules have exceptions. other type of marriages, the love marriages, work a lot of the times too, provided that the participants in such a relationship subscribe less to romantic imagination and are adaptable and compromising enough to enable creation of a similar understanding. highly individual choices and independence bring with them the inevitable clash of personalities which is often shrouded by the cloak of love. once the rose coloured glasses come off, these formerly subliminal bombs surface to create all havoc.
life is all about getting what you want, making most of what's available and being content with what you have. these are the lessons learnt over millenia of civilisation which brought with them complexities of communal life, society and identity. an adaptable, understanding relationship based on mutual trust and respect with adequate scope for individual expression is the ideal foundation to experience the higher emotions of conjugation, cohabitation and coexistence. two voices come to sing as one, each retaining its unique beauty.
Wednesday, January 25, 2006
What?
well i was reading my some of my own posts on solsy and dude yeah i know what you feel like...lol...anyways i liked it and like it...it refers to blah-ing away at odd hours to an audience who will always listen and having the advantage of getting numb fingers instead of a sore throat...its good...sense whether to you it makes or not is inconsequential...
ps: amazing what the mind cooks up when you are bored in the middle of the night...
ps: amazing what the mind cooks up when you are bored in the middle of the night...
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